my spiritual father, Buddha !

For those who don’t know me, i am someone who is totally inspired by Budha teaching!
 i considered Buddha as my spiritual father.
here is one of his saying,,, please, please, please read it. it is really important that you recognize my attitude behind it!

“Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it”

after reading the quote, can you think any of our social issues in KSA or (in other countries) that can be related to the quote’s topic? 
blogging, personal, philosophy, psychology, reading

my blog’s project!

click on the picture to see it bigger !
the summary of my project:
i will keep track of everything i spend and what i do in every hour. I will also count how many page i read per day. At the end, I will compare my result and get a clear image of how i spend my life. I will put the result in my blog. If you want to participate with me in this project, just keep track of whatever you spend (time,money, reading) and share with me your result
culture, Gender, history, philosophy, psychology, religions

Who Are We?

Throughout the history, every society starts its civilization by answering a very simple question; Who are we! As easy and simple this question may appear for many of us as hard it is to find an answer for it in reality.  

Some societies comes from nothing and starts building its own identity and its own civilization. other societies like ours always ignore ( and sometimes prohibit ) thinking of this type of question while in the same time it spend most of its time thinking of what it want to be!
How can we become what we want to be if we don’t know who we are? Why we (Saudi) don’t like to confront the fact that we don’t have an identity.
Please don’t tell me the your identity is what you inherited from your grand grand grand parents 200 years ago. I want to know your identity now. who are you? who am I? who are we? Can you answer any of these simple questions!
Identity isn’t something we inherited from previous generation but rather something that we give to the next generation and i don’t see anything that we would give to the next history other than fights over who is gonna enter the heaven first, or a fight over how saudi women and men should dressed in the public, or a fight over why women shouldn’t drive, etc…
we are so pathetic, aren’t we?
believe me!
you might be able to ignore the question, but you will never be able to ignore the scary feeling that you get when (yourself) approach you and ask you : who are you?
blogging, friends, personal, philosophy, psychology, religions

The Six Quirks Tag


I have been tagged by fellow blogger’s Ahmed (Saudi Jeans). and you know, final weeks is the very good time for writing the quirks !

These are the rules:

  1. Link the person(s) who tagged you.
  2. Mention the rules on your blog.
  3. Tell about 6 unspectacular quirks of yours.
  4. Tag 6 following bloggers by linking them.
  5. Leave a comment on each of the tagged bloggers’ blogs letting them know they’ve been tagged.

My Six Quirks:

  1. I don’t like to interfere people’s personal life and I don’t like them to interfere mine as well. This is very big issue in my life. I have realized through my life’s experience that people like to talk crazily about the others just to fulfill the empty gaps that exist in themselves.
  2. I observe, I don’t judge! I love observing how do people change from one status to another, how do they look at pain and happiness, how do they get frustrated and how do they raise again above their depression. Basically, I try to analysis every behavior that i see in the ground, but i in the same i don’t like to judge people based on what i see or listen of them!
  3. I don’t really care of what people think of me. I don’t care if you think i am crazy, odd or stupid guy. I wasted a long time of my life trying to justify for people who I am. Now, i am not willing to repeat the same mistake again.
  4. I don’t believe in anything that is against my rationality and common sense. 
  5. I am very contradictory person. I am divided into two sides and every one of them fight against another. Whenever i say something, my first side (1st ego) try to support me while my second side (2nd ego) try convince me that I am wrong!
  6. I don’t belong to any country, nor any religion, nor any sector! While people here and there are busying themselves trying to proof that this religion is wrong and that religion is right, i am trying to proof that i am human being!
I tag : 
  1. W.I.A.I ( Muneeb Saeed)
  2. Bander
  3. ماشي صح
  4. ورق
  5. ابوهارون
  6. Hala
*  🙂 P.S. the answers doesn’t have to be in ENGLISH
personal, philosophy, psychology

GOD,,keep me adolescent!

time : 7:05 clock

i woke up

and suddenly i found my self in the bathroom

i spent five minutes in the mirror observing my self

sometimes, i feel that i am more foolish than the person i see in the mirror.

such a contradictory feeling like this got me quickly to throw my self in the water.

In the water,, thinking of nothing except my self and what is happening inside me.

It is a wonderful feeling that a person feels when he dives in himself to measure the depth of his ocean.

Time: 7:25 clock

got out quickly,, only twenty-five minutes left for my class to start

i run quickly

sometimes, running makes us feel like there is something following us .

this scary feeling frightened me and makes my blood’s atoms grapple with each other.

Time : 9:15 clock

i look at my watch..

i have 50 minutes before my philosophy class start

my philosophy class is so enjoyable but none of us could easily understand what the professor is saying.

maybe this is what he want or maybe that is what he want us to think of him

the professor asked really strange questions

sometimes, i feel he is the  stupidest one in the world.

but at the end, he really surprised us with a different conclusion.

i learned from this professor that stupidity is a trick that is played intelligently by smart people so they can live peacefully and away of our interruption.

Time : 8:30 clock

thinking deeply,,

in my head , many questions are grappling with each other

now i am about to reach the most dangerous stage of human’s life

it is so-called – the stage of uncertainty

i don’t know how Descartes was able to pass through this stage safely?

but me,,

as my grandmother said: ” a young teenager that his absorbed adolescence can’t be carried away from university’s borders “

Oh that Adolescence ,, allows me to transform every mistake i make into new category..

called ( experience )

Time: 12:00 clock

before i go to sleep :

i scream :

Dear God,

take everything you want,,

but keep me adolescent