time : 7:05 clock
i woke up
and suddenly i found my self in the bathroom
i spent five minutes in the mirror observing my self
sometimes, i feel that i am more foolish than the person i see in the mirror.
such a contradictory feeling like this got me quickly to throw my self in the water.
In the water,, thinking of nothing except my self and what is happening inside me.
It is a wonderful feeling that a person feels when he dives in himself to measure the depth of his ocean.
Time: 7:25 clock
got out quickly,, only twenty-five minutes left for my class to start
i run quickly
sometimes, running makes us feel like there is something following us .
this scary feeling frightened me and makes my blood’s atoms grapple with each other.
Time : 9:15 clock
i look at my watch..
i have 50 minutes before my philosophy class start
my philosophy class is so enjoyable but none of us could easily understand what the professor is saying.
maybe this is what he want or maybe that is what he want us to think of him
the professor asked really strange questions
sometimes, i feel he is the stupidest one in the world.
but at the end, he really surprised us with a different conclusion.
i learned from this professor that stupidity is a trick that is played intelligently by smart people so they can live peacefully and away of our interruption.
Time : 8:30 clock
in my head , many questions are grappling with each other
now i am about to reach the most dangerous stage of human’s life
it is so-called – the stage of uncertainty
i don’t know how Descartes was able to pass through this stage safely?
as my grandmother said: ” a young teenager that his absorbed adolescence can’t be carried away from university’s borders “
Oh that Adolescence ,, allows me to transform every mistake i make into new category..
called ( experience )
Time: 12:00 clock
before i go to sleep :
i scream :
take everything you want,,
but keep me adolescent