Month: July 2008

culture, friends, Gender, Panorama, personal, philosophy, poetry, religions

the 6th panorama

Murtadha

I.”at some circumstances, slavery means a total freedom and pain means a total happiness”
talking with myself while i was walking
II. “I don’t believe in god, i don’t really like the concept of organized religion but at the same time, i don’t consider my self as an atheist”
An american friend talking to me about religion
III. “women enjoy sex too! their orgasm is twice as men orgasm”
one of my friend talking to me about sexuality from women perspective

IV. “i know myself,, saudi women can’t fit with my lifestyle” saudi student explaining to me why he doesn’t want to marry a saudi girl

V.”human beings can’t invent lie, they can produce it.. produce it from their past, from something they hide so long or something they fear to tell”
” talking to one of my friend about how we can learn so much about a person through his lies”

VI.”yes, we had sex several times”
saudi classmate talking openly about his sexual relationship with his girlfriend

VII. “my family get so angry and upset when they knew that i am in relationship with an american girl. they said that their reputation was ruined because of that” a saudi guy telling me about his problem with his family. it is count unacceptable in saudi culture to be in relationship with a girl without a marriage contract

VIII. “Wallah, it is very hard to describe my feeling, she came to me with her nude body and dance around me, seduced me.. but i couldn’t touch her*.. i feel like i am weak,, or slave to her body”
saudi guy describing to me his experience in nudity-topless bar.
* in nudity bar, people aren’t allowed to touch the nude girls unless she give them the permission or the client pay more or something,,, that is what the guy told me, but i am not sure though if that is true or not!
IX.”there are many thing  in life that can’t be seen or touched”
my respond to one of my friend when she ask me if i have seen god visually
X.”just like i survived 18 years in my country without meeting myself”
” my respond to my friend when he asked me: how could you survive 3 years in US without meeting your family?”
XI. “when you suffer so many times, pain would become your companion, you wouldn’t feel the pain but rather the joy that comes with it”
a friend talking  to me,,,( just like i expected,, people enjoy pain more than happiness )

XII.“Eventualism isn’t designed to answer all questions. It’s designed to question all answers” one of my friend believe Eventualism, i love to have friend who has a different ideologies

XIII. “I believe in myself slowly, it takes all of the doubts i’ve got. it takes my wonder”
reading a post on tri-met bus
note:
please don’t make any generalization based on one individual observation of these, individual represent only themselves
culture, friends, personal, philosophy, psychology

the 5th Panorama !

Murtadha

As i said before, Panorama is a collection of short sentences that represent part of my observation around this odd world!
I.

” Reading is important. writing is important. but,, what more important is understanding numbers.”

psychology’s professor at PSU taking to me about the importance of numbers while i was repairing his computer
II.
الفرق بين عيادتي النفسية وعيادة الجامعة ان الطبيب الذي يعالج في عيادتي مجنون. مجنون. مجنون.
هذا اعلان لعيادتي التي فتحتها في فترة الاختبارات… صدقوني نحن بحاجة للمجانين في هذا الزمن اكثر من الدكاترة والعقلاء
III.
” I feel a pain here in my head and there in my feet. I also feel a pain in my stomach and my skin, you know what it feels when you get old, you feel like you wanna die just to get rid of the pain”
my old lovely aunt talking to me about her pains.
III.
“It doesn’t matter how well you speak when you have nothing to say”
” Richard Pimentel quoting someone else in his speech at PSU graduation ceremony. it was a really powerful speech”
IV.
“I don’t want you to follow my footsteps, i already did.. i want you to follow your footsteps!”
” listening to Richard Pimentel’s speech at PSU graduation ceremony”
V.
“Listen,,,behind every face you encounter in the street, a story!,,, look at that angry girl while she is talking to her boyfriend,,, she has a story,,,
look at that old man waiting for the bus to come,, he has a story ,,, look at that black guy as he sit alone in the corner,, he has a story… look at that homeless guy as he sleep on the street, he has a story too. my job as observant is to figure out the story behind everyone of them”
talking with my brother Mustafa about the beauty of observation!



VI.
“being under men’s mercy, is the beggiest mistake that most of us do”
” saudi married-woman talking to my sister about the importance of being independent for women”
VII.
نحن مجتمع فضولي الى حد الجنون.. الكل يريد ان يتدخل في الحياة الخاصة لكل شخص..الكل يريد ان يعرف لماذا طلق فلان مرأته ولماذا ذلك الرجل يلبس هذا النوع من الباس ولماذا تلك المرأة لا تتحدث مع امها .. ولماذا ذلك الشاب تخصص في هذا التخصص ..ولا نكتفي بذلك … نحن نختلق الاحداث ونحلل الخبر بالشكل الذي نريده..فنقول ان ذلك الرجل طلق مرأته لانه يعاني من مرض نفسي وأن تلك المرأة طلقها زوجها لانها كانت في فضيحة.. ووهذا حالة طبيعية … الانسان حينما يخاف من تقييم نفسه ..فأنه يحاول اللجوء الى تقييم الاخرين
هذا ماقلته لاحد الاصدقاء بعد سماعي لاحاديث الشباب حول اسباب طلاق احد الاشخاص لزوجته
VIII.
” I can have Sex, free massage and someone that cook breakfast for me every morning!”
a guy saying that while i was siting with one of my friend in Goose Hollow building!
IX.
” I should hold a sign written in it (Pains for free)”
that was what came to my mine when I saw two beautiful girls holding a sign written in it “free hug!!

X.
أن يعرف الإنسان كيف بدأت الحياة الإنسانية أمر شاق:إذ من الذي عرف البداية بنفسه؟
مقطع من كتاب ادوارد سعيد.. اعشق هذا الكاتب جدا واعشق جميع افكاره واطروحاته